Day 55

Day 55......already???? I don't even believe it! It doesn't feel like it has been that long already! I know towards the beginning of this journey, I made a list of why I was doing this. Some of those things have changed, and some have stayed the same, and I have also added to that list. I thought maybe today I would take a look at that list and remind myself why I want to be this new person so bad....

• Alayna....she is so important to me, and I know that she is (other than myself) the biggest reason I want to change.
• Hayden, of course. I want him to get the best possible version of me that is possible.
• My family....they also deserve the most amazing daughter and sister and aunt that is possible. So I need to be healthy and happy for them.
• To go shopping and not walk out of the store crying. Being able to shop at the same store as Hayden. I've never been able to, and I would love to not have to go to a special store just because I can't fit in the ones where he is (the clothes, not the store...that would be ridiculous!).
• Disney world!!!!! To be able to fit in the rides and keep up with my family. I want to make the most out of this trip, and if that means being healthy and happy, so be it!
• Fitting into a nice swimsuit without having to wear a cover up or tshirt the whole time!!
• To have some ABS!!!!! This one is self explanatory!
• Being able to keep up with Alayna and letting nothing hold me back!!
• Being able to wear heels and not feel like I'm going to fall down with every step!
• To feel comfortable in front of the camera, not just behind it.

So I changed and expanded some of the list, but they are all still relevant. I just feel like there is so much left to change, but still so much that has. I most of all, more than anything on this list, just want to be 100% happy and healthy with myself. I just want to be the best mother, wife, daughter, sister, aunt, niece, friend, and person I can possibly be. I hope that I can constantly keep these goals in mind even when I am feeling down. 

All of you, don't forget why you start something. I know sometimes we get so blinded by what we want...like that pizza, or drink, or whatever else is something you LOVE, but you just have to remember why you started. And don't EVER forget where you came from...it will help push you through any road block you come across.