Day 161 - 1

Good Evening Everyone....and Happy New Year!!!! I hope you all had a great close to 2013 and are ready to welcome 2014 with open arms!!! I know I am.  I am finally back at it, blogging that is, as well as everything else. I am here to admit something I never wanted to have to do....I gave up on myself.

I always do, and I was too scared to tell you all that. I guess I figured if I just kept blogging maybe I would be able to fake myself out. I stopped going to the gym and got so focused on work and home that I stopped worrying about me, and I gave up. But this is me making a promise that I will not do that again. I never stopped thinking about what I started. Not once. Every day I looked in the mirror and realized I am not the person I promised myself to be for 2014, and I hate that. But instead of discouraging me, it will motivate me. It has to, or I won't be able to go on in this battle.

Now, I don't want people to think this is my New Year's resolution. In no way is this a resolution. This is a solution....a lifetime fix. It's not about getting back on the horse, but about keeping on the same path. There never was a horse, just me and this journey. I may get off the path at times, but I am always headed in the right direction and am on the same journey. (so many horrible cliches here, stick with me!) I know that I can do this, and I have done it, but this time it's about staying focused. It's about having a goal in mind, small goals at first and then eventually making it to the big goal.

So in 2014, I am not making this my resolution, but my stance, my change. I apologize that I let all of you down. This blog took some sort of turn and I hate what it became. It wasn't inspiring, if anything it was demotivating. I talked myself out of everything, and I stopped caring about me. That time is over. I am here to make changes and inspire changes. I am ready to become that person I was months ago....she was a strong person, and I can't wait to welcome her back.

I thank each and every one of you that have stayed with me. And I welcome back people who choose to start reading again. I am sorry for the long wait on the lightbulb to go off, but I am here and I am ready to get back on the right path!!! I look forward to the journey with all of you by my side and cheering!!!

Happy New Year everyone....I can't wait to see what 2014 holds for me!!!