Friday Blues

So I'm trying not to be up and positive today. I wake up in a great mood, telling myself that I'm going to kick today's butt. I felt confident. I felt positive. I get ready, drive to work, and everything changes. Nothing quite like being kicked when you're down, but this was one of those repetitive type kicks. I know that corporate America isn't for everyone, and that sometimes you have to suck it up and just listen to what others have to say. But sometimes I feel like saying....but that's not fair? And then I have a (way too late) realization...life isn't ever going to be fair.

I'm 25, almost 26, and still find a lot of things unfair. I think that the way we are treated if we are not management, or upper management, or in the corporate office, we are just a peg on the board. And there are a whole lot of pegs just sitting there waiting to take my spot. So I am trying my best to show that I want to advance myself in this company, but it just isn't showing. 

That's enough about work though. I spoke with my doctor yesterday and I am going to start drinking ensure each day in addition to a high protein shake in the afternoon. He said if I can keep my caloric intake up, than I can continue to excercise and feel safe about not losing muscle. Today I flexed my calf and there was nothing there. My body is getting weaker and weaker, and I have to put the right things into it, to get what I want out of it. Today my Lenten goal is to give my time to others, where I have not been. I am so used to keeping things to myself, but I am going to let some walls down today. I like to keep them up because it is easy, but not today. Let's see how that goes!

I apologize for the short post, but my brain is overflowing with stuff so I have to go unload it!! Enjoy your Friday everyone!!