Picking Up the Pieces

So, I sit here today after reading my last post, and feel nothing but anger and disappointment in myself. How could I have gone from being so motivated to where I am now. Granted a lot has gone on since the last post, Hayden and I have both had surgeries, we are still on a journey to figuring out just what is going on with me health wise, and Alayna is in school and about to turn 5. Still it was no excuse to stop writing. I made excuses like "I was too busy" or "I'm too tired". All they are is just that, excuses. No reason I can't take a run after work, or do some cardio before bed.

I will admit it is a difficult feeling to look back on all of those posts and how confident I was. Funny enough, wasn't I supposed to be doing a half-marathon last month? But things happen and life throws curve balls at you that you would never expect. I hope that any readers of this, if there are any, are understanding of that. I took what some could call a sabbatical from writing. Some people missed it, and have asked about it, and most have just forgotten. But I know that I did let some people down, and I am here to say that I am no way perfect, but I am going to try my best to make sure that I write every day. Losing the weight is going to be harder this time, because I'm on different medication that messes with how I lose and gain. I am on certain dietary restrictions for different reasons, and I am also just a working mom which is hard all on it's own. I know other people do it, and they do it flawlessly. I mean look at famous people (granted they have a staff of 50 people helping them get it done), they still make everything work. So this time around, I am going to make it work. I am going to be the tortoise in this race, however I am in the race. And that's all that matters.

I will by no means be perfect, and write long posts each day of the week, heck this one isn't even that long, and I'm writing it on my lunch break, but that is neither here nor there. I am going to do what I do best and that is write about my day, the struggles, the triumphs, and the things that I will work hard to change. I will keep up with things this time. I will not fall off the wagon (or at least try not to), and I will take any suggestions for posts that you would like me to post! I hope that some of you loyal readers come back and take a gander. Some of this will be the same old thing from last time, but a lot of it will be different. With the way my life has been changing on a daily basis, I'm sure these posts will differ immensely from what they were before, but I also know that I will struggle just like before too. So here is to 2015...the year that has started off extremely stressful, and given me one of my hardest quilt patches I have had to handle and am still handling, but let's make it work. Still pretty fresh into the year and can turn it around just as easy!