Alright, first meeting is done and in the books. I was so nervous I thought my heart was going to beat out of my chest. What would the number be? Would I be able to continue if it was so high I wanted to give up? What if I'm the biggest person there and they stare? Boy was I overthinking it. I went in, weighed in, in a private booth, got my sticker with my weight on it and took a deep breath. I opened the book to where she put the sticker, and I breathed the biggest sigh of relief I could muster. I hadn't put on 1,000 pounds like I thought. Only 12. So, I'm in a much better position than I thought I was.
The rest of the meeting went well. We talked about successes and struggles, and it was comforting to know I wasn't alone. I mean I know I went with someone one, but I wasn't the only person in the world feeling this way. So it's safe to say I worked it up a ton in my head, like I do with literally every new thing that happens to me.
Last night my parents wanted to order from Pizza Roma, which is like my favorite pizza place. So I thought, I have the points for pizza, do it Bethany! But then an even louder voice said Bethany, no!!! You can eat a chicken salad and be just as happy! So I got a buffalo chicken salad, minus the French fries (thanks Pittsburgh for you weird eats) and it was delicious. I didn't feel like I was lacking any taste or hungry for something after. I think I handled myself pretty well.
On another note, I worked up the courage to go walk the track today, in public, in others view!! I am doing the C25K program and this is only my first day but I think it went well. I wasn't fast, but I did okay. I did a better mile than I paced in my 5k I did a few weeks ago, so I guess that's good. As I was running I was thinking, "am I ever going to enjoy this??". I just don't see how it will ever be something that I WANT to do. I hate it and it doesn't feel good. But I guess it's just something else I have to get my body used to. Anyone have any notes on how to get to like running? Did you start running and hate it? Any tips would be helpful.
Well I'm off to enjoy my nephews soccer game. Alayna had her last soccer game today, thank goodness, it was excruciating to watch her play. But she's on to bigger things!
I'm currently trying to get back into running! Haha I've gone twice now and it's been rough. I'm hoping if I go every few days I'll get used to it again because I used to love it! If you ever want to run together let me know! I find having a good playlist of songs helps me so I'm not skipping 10 songs just to find one lol
ReplyDeleteAs someone who is also not a huge fan of running most of the time, I'd be happy to share other forms of exercise that I find less intimidating and much more fun! Have you tried Zumba, for example? The choreography is easy and you can use the DVDs before going to a class if that feels more comfortable. But the classes are actually easier to follow than the DVD :)
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