Scaredy Cat

People would most likely describe me as a scaredy cat. Because I'm scared of scary movies, (embarrassingly enough) I sleep with a night light, and I don't like being outside at night. So I'm your typical scaredy cat. But there are other things I'm scared of too. Things most other people think nothing of. I'm scared about buying a house, I'm scared to move out of my house, I'm scared I'm going to be living with my parents forever. There are so many uncertainties in my life, that I don't know what my next move should be. 

So much of my life is left to chance because I have little control over what happens to me. How am I supposed to buy a house when I don't even know what Hayden will be making at a new job to figure out what kind of house we can afford. I don't even know where we are going to move our stuff after he leaves Augusta. There is so much in my life that I don't know what is going to happen. So I'm going to approach it like I approach my weight loss journey, with a plan, and sticking to the plan. 

Last night my sister and I talked and I set three short term goals for myself. If I can make those three things happen with in the next 6-12 months, I can conquer my fears and get into a house. I know that it's possible, but there is just this feeling in the back of my head that makes me sick to my stomach. I don't know how to explain it. Anyone else know what I'm trying to say? I guess I just have to try and achieve these three goals and move on to the next ones. I can't let my stress and fear take over too much of my weight loss journey will be impacted. And I CAN'T lose this battle this time. I have GOT to live a healthier life for Hayden and Alayna. And for myself!! I need to be happier with who I am, and I'm just not right now. So here's to the next 6-12 months and getting my three items to do, down to none, or new items!! Wish me luck!!