Day 2

Okay everyone, day two is halfway through and I am still okay. I decided to kind of cheat a little and join Weight Watchers. I have a friend who has had great success with it and I figured...what the hell. I will go to meetings every week and keep track of my progress. So I guess that will hold me accountable in some sort of way. I do feel weird about not counting calories, since I have always done that, but I guess this is just a different way of counting. Last night I had a hard time eating anywhere close to my points, which I have a lot, so I don't know how I'll do with that. But I guess I'd rather be below my points than over them!! 

I also worked out last night. I was as surprised as you are! And I didn't die afterwards, so it must have gone well. Now it wasn't anything intense, but I did break a sweat. Which there is something to be said for that. I'm having the same guilt issues I had before. I know I have to work out, but I feel guilty not spending time with Alayna. But I just have to keep telling myself that this is for her. Once I get to a better me, she will understand why I had to do it. And sometimes she likes to come down with me, so we do spend some time together. I guess it's just all about balance. 

I wish I could tell you I had a delicious protein for dinner and veggies, but we ate out last night. It was just Panera, so I had some healthy options. I got a salad with extra tomatoes (because they are my favorite) and extra dressing. I was living on the edge. But it was still yummy. And for lunch today I had...you guessed it...salad. But the good thing is I kinda like salad, contrary to yesterday's rant about it. It's not the worst thing to eat so I make some sacrifices and eat it. I will eventually branch out and eat more interesting (and protein packed) food. But for now, salad will work. 

I weigh in on Saturday and I'm hella nervous. I haven't been on a scale in months, and I'm straight terrified to get on one now. I lost all that weight a couple years ago and I know I've gained it all back and then some. So I just know I'm not in a good place right now. But I also know that I have to start somewhere. So I guess here it goes. 

I know I jumped around a lot on topics today, but it's my blog and I can do what I want!! Just kidding, kind of. But I promise this time is different. I'm in this for the long haul. I will see changes in myself this time. I will appreciate the little successes and the big successes. Every accomplishment is a good one. So here goes. The countdown to my 2 week mark (when something becomes a habit) starts now. If I can just get over this two week hump, I will be in it to win it. (that was cliche) So let's do this!! Who's with me?