Love All Year Round

So I hope you all had a great Valentine's day, but my point of this post today, love should be something that is felt and received all year round, not just on the day Hallmark tells us to. Granted Hayden did what I told him not to do, and he went out and got me the most beautiful gift I could have imagined getting. I just refuse to let a holiday define my love, so I challenge all of you to today show your loved ones the same amount of love you show them on a holiday that tells us to. 

Not the only point I want to make with my post today. I am just getting back into the groove of things at work, and have still been finding myself unbearably tired. I have been staring at my ten year plan that I made, and I keep thinking to myself that I am never going to be able to make it, because I am too sick. But I know that if I push hard and have support from Hayden and Alayna, I can make this work. I love my job, and I want to move up as soon as possible. I also know that my health is not where it needs to be. Sometimes I will go a day or two with eating just a couple things and not even realize it. I have no urge to eat, and am burning so many more calories than I am taking in. I feel like I am just going to start gaining weight because of that. I have read the horror stories, but it's almost like I have to force myself to eat, but the inches stay the same. I mean not many people have seen me (other than my co-workers) in the last year as I have slowly progressed to where I am, but I know that I have changed. I feel weaker, more tired, and less productive. My body is not what it was when I started this journey originally. I know that I have to build back up to where I was, but I don't have the nutrients in me to do that. I am being poked and prodded each week to make sure that all my nutrition stays at a healthy level, and we are about to start a big process of getting me into see some specialists about what we think is going on. So I am on the right track. 

I will continue to work as hard as I have been, to the best of my ability. I will not let what is beating me, BEAT me. I am going to be the healthy person that I was and get back to where I was last year. I CAN do this. So the moral of this ramble, is that we need to celebrate LOVE, all the time. And that I am going to make it through this journey no matter what. Either way will see. Until tomorrow my friends!