Coffee Kind Of Morning

So today was definitely a coffee kind of morning. I try my best not to have any but I just couldn't get up and running. I have been having just the worst kind of nightmares and they wake me up out of a dead sleep. So I just didn't sleep well and had to be up nice and early. And when you are half asleep, you tend to get startled pretty easy (hopefully this isn't just me), and I was minding my own business getting my shower before I got Alayna up and dressed for school. As I am washing conditioner out of my very tired and now stinging eyes, I hear a light sound of the shower curtain moving and a small voice say "Hi Mommy"...I screamed, for obvious reasons, and then had to calm her down because I had obviously scared her just as much as she had scared me. So that's how MY morning has started. 

So after I get her dressed, I go to get my uniform, and I figure, I'll wear a shirt I haven't tried wearing in a long time, because I know it doesn't fit, but heck, why not make the morning worse than it already has been. So I put a red long sleeve shirt on under my soon to not fit polo, and then I put the polo on, and I look in the mirror, and rub my eyes, maybe there was still conditioner in them, because the shirt fit the person I was looking at in the mirror. Could it be? I haven't been doing much. A little (devil machine) biking, and rowing. Walking and on my feet all day at work has to help too. And I have been eating as much protein as I can. So I guess something is working. 

Hayden has been working night shift, so he is usally going to sleep when I get home from work, or leaving as soon as I get home. So it has given me a lot of time to work on things, and I decided it was finally time to buy a .com. It's insane how much some punctuation and 3 letters cost. That is neither here nor there. The point being, I think it brought back some of that Bethany I have been looking for. Now it is under construction, and by no means done. I have a lot of things to do to it, so I will not be revealing it just yet. I have let few family members see, and if you just have to see it, message me and I can give you the address. I know it sounds silly, but it makes me feel so creative to be formatting, and writing html (which who knew that would stick from college). It's fun and makes me feel like I'm doing what I paid, well am paying, all that money for. It all just comes so natural to me and I love it. I feel like I'm back in the digital lab in college building my first website. Although templates are really nice to have. It's wonderful not having to build ALL the html yourself. 

I hope that you have all been feeling challenged these last few days to do what you love and what makes you happy. Who knew something as little as moving some pictures around on a website would bring that back for me. What is it taking for you? You know a lot more people used to comment with answers on this blog, you should start that again. I love hearing if I am motivating at least oen person! 

To wrap up, I think the lesson here, is get your child up before putting conditioner in your eyes, both for her and your sake. Go out and find something that made or continues to make you happy. And don't lose who you are. That's so easy these days, but remember who you are and why you decided to do the things you do. It will be incredible how happy you find yourself even through the stinging conditioner eyes!