Friday Again?

I know it's been a couple days since a post. Hayden's birthday was yesterday, so I wanted to spend all the time I could with him. It seems those moments are rare with us. And this weekend Alayna is going to be gone the whole weekend, so we may actually get to go on a date? Unheard of. But the more I think of her being gone, the more I miss her already. With all this maybe and maybe not about having more children, I want to spend every second with her. 

I am doing everything I possibly can to try and keep my body un-stressed and in a position to be calm and accepting of whatever happens. I have decided to start doing yoga, and am also doing a Reiki session on the 17th, that I am really excited about. I have been reading a lot about Chakra's and Essential oils and Reiki therapy. Although all are based out of other views, I spoke with my priest here, and he said that whatever God I believe in, his hands will be with the Reiki therapist to heal. I was so moved when I spoke to him. He blessed me and said a prayer with me. I'm trying to really let go and let God. I want to bring my faith into this as much as possible, but also explore other routes to try and become more healthy. 

I have also been using smoothies to get my protein and fat content up, so that when I work out, I am burning the right thing, which is fat. I have not been brave enough to step on the scale just yet, because I know that I am still in the process of getting into a routine. But some day, or week, I will start doing weekly weigh ins. For some reason that scale is still so daunting. When I go to the doctors and they move it to the one number and move the second one all the way down and it doesn't move, then they do it again, and again, I almost want to tell them, "Let me save you the trouble and move it to the very top for you.....It may ask for one at a time honestly". It is just so angering to see the number. I worked hard to get rid of all of it, and I feel like I'm right back where I was. But like I said last time, I can fail over and over and over and over again, but it's the getting back up, and trying again, that matters. 

So I am going to leave you with a picture today. I haven't done it in a while, but it's a good quote worth adding.