Keeping Up

So I promised that I would keep up with my blog, and I will not let you down. I will not be writing every day. I would not set myself up for that kind of failure anymore. It was ridiculous to think that I could continue that. However I will write whenever I can. I am doing a great job of keeping up with my lifestyle change! The yoga however has been a little bit more difficult to keep up with. I am trying my best to at least work out though. I have been going for walks, I have been going to work and making sure to walk around and keep busy as often as possible, walking the steps at home up and down, anything I can possibly do. I know some of those things sound silly, but they keep me active!

This change in my life has been eye opening, it has been really difficult not to weigh in every week, but as someone who has made a huge impact on my life once said, it's not the pounds that matter, but how you feel, and the inches that matter. Health is always more important, and something that should be noted is that my liver has been getting healthier and healthier. The test they did last time showed that my fatty liver disease had severely decreased which is just fantastic!!! Apparently this diet and exercise thing really do work!

I have been scolded though through this process that I have not been eating enough. I went to see a nutritionist and dietitian and they told me that what I was doing was all wrong. So I decided to switch it up, and make sure that I was doing what was right for my body and I have seen a huge difference! I am so lucky to have such a support system in this journey though. I hope I haven't lost all of my readers, since this isn't going to facebook any longer. That was my biggest market for this blog, so hopefully this will reach other people!

I am leaving you all to that, and I promise that I will make an effort to write sooner. If there is anything more you would like to read, feel free to leave a comment and let me know! I am an open book!

Day 162

Alright everyone, another night of confessions coming your way! I hate admitting this one, but it's something I have to do to really feel like I'm starting fresh this year........I haven't weighed myself in a few weeks. Probably since I got home from Disney World is the last time I weighed myself. I have been so worried about what I am going to see what I get on that scale, that I have just been avoiding it all together. So for now, I am going to just breath deep breaths tomorrow and see what it says. I will continue to weigh in on Fridays, I preferred it really, but I will have a official weigh in next week. Tomorrow will just be me getting on the scale to see a "start-ish" point. I don't want to say that I am starting completely over, because I have made progress, I just.....digressed a little bit along the way. So tomorrow...I jump on that scale and will brave it just like other week. And KNOW that it will be going down the week after that.

So I am heading back into the place I fear so much, which is the grocery store....I don't like going in just because there is just so much temptation that lurks around every corner. There are so many options to derail me, that I just hate going. I know that there are foods that are good for me there, but come on....bunch of chocolate cookies is going to look much better than cup of carrots. I mean who doesn't agree with me on that one???? So I will venture back in tonight and see what lies in store for me.

I also am headed back to the gym tonight. As tired as I know I am, I know what is more important to me. And what will always be more important to me, is making sure that I am healthy and happy, and around for forever with Alayna!!

So I leave you all with a thought, what changes are you making in your lives for the better this year? Now, I made a resolution on top of this change, to be a better person....that means mother, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. Sometimes I get distracted with things that I can be a bad one of the above, and this year, I want to change that. I also want to live by one of my favorite TV show quotes.....I leave you with that tonight to think about...it's my new years goal!!

Day 161 - 1

Good Evening Everyone....and Happy New Year!!!! I hope you all had a great close to 2013 and are ready to welcome 2014 with open arms!!! I know I am.  I am finally back at it, blogging that is, as well as everything else. I am here to admit something I never wanted to have to do....I gave up on myself.

I always do, and I was too scared to tell you all that. I guess I figured if I just kept blogging maybe I would be able to fake myself out. I stopped going to the gym and got so focused on work and home that I stopped worrying about me, and I gave up. But this is me making a promise that I will not do that again. I never stopped thinking about what I started. Not once. Every day I looked in the mirror and realized I am not the person I promised myself to be for 2014, and I hate that. But instead of discouraging me, it will motivate me. It has to, or I won't be able to go on in this battle.

Now, I don't want people to think this is my New Year's resolution. In no way is this a resolution. This is a solution....a lifetime fix. It's not about getting back on the horse, but about keeping on the same path. There never was a horse, just me and this journey. I may get off the path at times, but I am always headed in the right direction and am on the same journey. (so many horrible cliches here, stick with me!) I know that I can do this, and I have done it, but this time it's about staying focused. It's about having a goal in mind, small goals at first and then eventually making it to the big goal.

So in 2014, I am not making this my resolution, but my stance, my change. I apologize that I let all of you down. This blog took some sort of turn and I hate what it became. It wasn't inspiring, if anything it was demotivating. I talked myself out of everything, and I stopped caring about me. That time is over. I am here to make changes and inspire changes. I am ready to become that person I was months ago....she was a strong person, and I can't wait to welcome her back.

I thank each and every one of you that have stayed with me. And I welcome back people who choose to start reading again. I am sorry for the long wait on the lightbulb to go off, but I am here and I am ready to get back on the right path!!! I look forward to the journey with all of you by my side and cheering!!!

Happy New Year everyone....I can't wait to see what 2014 holds for me!!!